This past month has been an uphill battle. I've had to deal with some issues that arose after my surgery. One of them I should have taken care of a long time ago. Currently has to do with the fact that I have really bad post nasal drip as a result of my allergies. But the problem is, I have an issue with post nasal drip all year round, all the time & I never took the time to see an allergist about it.
Now it has affected my swallowing which is partly why I'm still having some difficulty with eating certain foods. I'm treading lightly & doing my best to watch what I'm eating & how much. The quantity is nothing because I'm well aware I can't eat very much & I'm ok with that. It's more so not knowing what will go down & what won't. It gets a bit frustrating because I'm tired of getting sick & I try my best to avoid it. I still get nausea spells depending but I've gotten better. I try my best to keep what I ingest, down. Some days I'm good, others not so much.
I was starting to spiral downward, to be honest. Always used to being on the go & busy, the surgery basically made me put the brakes on everything & I've only recently began to move around like myself again & even feel like myself.
Unfortunately though, my mind & body are not in sync. I'm just taking it one day at a time. Doing my best to stay focused on the positive. I'm waiting to see a throat specialist at this point & just hoping there will be some result there but I don't want to get my hopes up. I've been relying on my faith to help get me through this because mentally it's taken a toll on me.
Sometimes I get mad at myself because no matter how much pain I go through, I'll keep fighting. Whether it be physical pain or emotional pain. Something inside me will never ever let me give up on anything which is why I always keep pushing, no matter what. Cause I'll be damned if I let anything beat ME...
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