The first day was tough because it was my first time tasting the stuff & so I wasn't sure what to expect. I've never made my own protein shakes or smoothies so this is new to me. I have to consume 2 meal shakes, one fiber shake & one protein shake in a day. The drinks I made were a bit on the thick side & it made it very very difficult for me to drink. I was literally gagging & it took all my willpower to just swallow the stuff.
Yesterday, which was day 2, was not good for me. I tried adding some water to each one this time in order to thin it out & that helped. The surgeon did warn me that I may feel more tired than usual because of not consuming any solid food & that I would most likely get headaches also. Well, on my way to work yesterday morning, I started to feel the beginnings of a headache & so when I got to work, I asked one of my coworkers for some Tylenol. Didn't help whatsoever because I started to feel worse as the day went on. I didn't make it very far though because by 11:00 a.m., I had to ask my boss to go home. I felt weak, my head was pounding, I had the shakes & I felt very nauseous. I didn't want to throw up though because I didn't want my body to lose the nutrients I was getting from the liquid. Since I can't have solid food, I won't be able to eat crackers or soup to make myself feel better if I vomit. So I held off for as long as I could. Went home & laid down to try & sleep off the nasty feelings. I was okay for about 2 hours & then it just came up.
I called my surgeon's office & spoke with a nurse who told me that I shouldn't be feeling that way & that maybe I was coming down with something. Ummm.....NO. I know my body & I'm feeling this way because I went from eating food to just drinking it. Basically what I got from the call was, either you drink this stuff for 2 weeks or you can't do the surgery because this is vital to the surgery being successful.
*sigh*
I was bothered by her lack of sympathy but whatever. Getting through these two weeks is what matters right now. This is probably one of the hardest things I've had to do. I don't want to smell foods or even be around it because the temptation is there. This stuff isn't appetizing either, not even with the fruit I've put in it so I feel like a robot. Just going through the motions & counting the days. Trying to stay occupied so my mind doesn't wander to the hunger pangs I slightly feel.
This is temporary though & I just have to get through it. I just keep repeating to myself, "Mind over matter."
Mind over matter...
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