I've just been really down about this liquid diet business. I don't think I realized how hard not being able to touch solid food for two weeks would be. Ever since I was feeling really crappy on day 2 of the diet, I've been okay. Physically, as in not feeling sick. Mentally? Not so good. I'm ready to throw in the towel as far as the surgery goes.
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I'm conflicted between continuing to lose the weight on my own which I know I can do by continuing to eat as well as I do & exercising often. Or going through with the liquid diet so I can have the surgery since I've come this far. I'm not one to give up on anything. I'm like that with almost everything in my life & I just feel like I'm letting not only my family down, but MYSELF, by not going through with surgery. In all reality, I don't HAVE to do the surgery but I just can't see myself NOT doing it. (See the conflict here?)
Thankfully, my husband & my sisters have been an awesome support system for me. They know I can tackle this weight loss with or without the surgery so they remain neutral & just allow me to vent my frustrations. I realize my support group is important for this reason so I'll be attending a meeting next week which will be the day before my surgery. I googled support groups for the VBG surgery & found a great one. It's so nice to talk to people that understand what you're going through & are having the same feelings. It makes me feel less alone & helps me to find the inner strength to get through it.
It may sound easy & you're probably thinking "Well you wanted this." But it's not just that. It takes a lot of willpower to not be able to eat ANYTHING, just drink these shakes that make you want to swear off chocolate for the rest of your life.
But I've got 8 more days to go. Such a small number.... *sigh* I know I can do this. I know I can. & as much it sucks.....I just CAN'T GIVE UP...
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I know you can do it baby :-)
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